Dork

Today, at the gym, when I was getting off the elliptical, I totally stepped backwards into the guy on the elliptical machine next to me... to the point of like, stopping his arms from their motion. lol So I, embarassed, apologized... oh no it gets worse. It does. Then as I turned around to walk away, my knee smacked into the back of the machine soooo hard. lol I am such a dork.

On an unrelated note (actually maybe it's related to the dork phenomenon), I have really been struggling with jealousy. I can be jealous of almost anyone for almost anything. At other times, I am soooo happy to be in my own skin (as opposed to anyone else's) and feel so free from that feeling. Seriously, basking in my own independence and alone-ness before God is sometimes the best thing I can rest in, and I am so happy to be just... me. I guess this is just one of my personal struggles, and everyone has theirs... right? :) Riiiiight? Okay. I guess I'm just saying it on here for psuedo confession. Telling you what a klutz I am and how I am so prone to consuming jealousy somehow helps me get over it.

Did you ever think how we all have, probably, around the same number of scars... the same level of disfigurement and sin? Some of us wear it outwardly and some of us inwardly. That's just my personal theory.